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Inseparable
I am inseparable to the following,
Games, Manga, Anime, American Idol
Firstly,
Games
This is the greatest stronghold in my life, once i get my hands on the controller, trust me that for the following 12-15 hours, it will be a pain for me to leave the game hanging. Star Ocean is currently the game i am playing, whenever i play it, i will feel like i am in the world of theirs, venturing on an adventure of my own. This applies to Final Fantasy too. I can even bear to use some of my hard earned money and hard to get allowance to buy game guides. I will always get so obsessed with it that i wont leave it to get my meals. Even if my mother urge me to eat, i will obey but i wont have the appetite to do so. Sometimes it will even indulge vomitting. That is the reason to my gastric pain problem i had a few years back. Game is really like a super glue sticking my butt to the chair that i cant leave even if the Holy Spirit rebuked me to. The worst thing is, I cant bear to sacrifice my sleep to play games for the whole night and go to school the next day without having sufficient stamina to last. I really want to get out of this, but i crave for game so much that it is really a tough obstacle to overcome!!
Secondly,
Manga
Can anyone save me from spending too much on these. Every week, i will/must spend at least $10 on it, or else i will feel something missing in me. Manga is just like temporary cure to my misery. Whenever i am under the weather, it is something that will brighten up my day for sure. I dont read mangas as long as i play games, but it drains my allowance so much that i dont have enough to spend at times. My parents and friends have persuaded me to stop, even the Holy Spirit does, but i guess it is not working. After i completed a series of mangas, i am sure that i will be tempted do start another whole new series. No, even if i didnt complete a series, i will start a new series. That makes a lot of holes to be filled in and this will even drain my money even more.
Thirdly,
Anime
Really something terrible. Mangas drain money and guess what this drains??? Time, it drains a lot of my valuable time. I will keep downloading it and downloading it and spend a lot of time watching it. I will even go to an extend of sacrificing time to do important things in order to do this. It is everlasting, another tough stronghold to get rid of but not as tough as mangas and games since the time to download an anime is VERY LONG when for both mangas and games, you can read and play it respectively at any time.
Forth,
American Idol
Nightmare!! Really a nightmare, once i get into it, i will spend a lot of time downloading their performances and spend money to buy their cds. I will listen to it when i go to school, at home, in the computer lab, during lessons. Kelly, Clay, Jasmine and Anthony. Love them but they are really a stronghold. The good part about this stronghold is that it lasts only seven months. From January to early August. After it, i will mull over it too much and it is all again a peaceful time until the third wednesday of January again. I was anticipating a string of events to come this season as i was typing this. Pathetic!! I predict that the singer i idolise will come fifth this season as this is the fifth season. It really match!! See, Kelly CLarkson, 1st on 1st season. Clay, 2nd on 2nd season. Jasmine, 3rd on 3rd season. Anthony, 4th on 4th season. Non American Idol fanatic, you will probably find this prediction naive. LOL
Above are the strongholds in my life. Not all of them, just some of the more serious one. Hope someone call help me get out of this pit before i dropped to the rockbottom. Games (Star Ocean, Final Fantasy, Grandia and Wild Arms especially), Mangas (Chuang Yi version), Anime (Every kind, even those feminine ones), American Idol. People, believe that you will see all the strongholds displayed on my face especially when my American Idol is back again!!!
Farewell!!
Praise
I really hope to sing praises to my Heavenly Father for the whole night non-stop. I am very excited today, God gave me a C for an assignment i thought i would have failed after seeing Shelia's grades. At that moment, i thought i would have failed because Shelia's poster design was far better than mine. Then, i began to surrender my assignment to God, i thought there was no use worrying, why not let God decide on the marks i will get and i stopped whining over and over again for having the fear of failing. Then, when i got my results slip back, i was greatly amazed when i saw 12/20. It really stamped my faith i have in God. Amen!
I went to the celebration with Zhang Liang in the beginning. But, due to some misunderstandings and the unclear instructions given, he backed out when we reached the Outram Park Station. When i reached there, i was rather bashful with the crowd, i sneak in without attracting too much attention and began searching for familiar faces i can relate to. Then i saw Ken, who was enjoying his plate of foods rather immensely and chatting with Karshun simultaneously. I felt comfortable and settled down. Then, Liyan approached me and asked me where is Zhang Liang, i told her the reason and she seems quite disappointed. Haiz, maybe i should have dragged him here by force. A sad thing that i didnt.
Then we have games, a rather silly game called Treasure Hunting.You have to find items required by the game master from your own group members. After which, one representative from each campus must present all the items required to the game master. NYP came in second and DI came in first. DI was given the honor to make a drink that is indecent in both taste and look. The second round of game was the most lame, representatives from each campus must act a movie out and the people are supposed to guess it correctly. After rounds of playing. NP lost the game and the representative from the campus is forced to gulp down the drink made by DI and NYP!! That is GROSTESQUE!!! However, the person from NP seems to take it as nothing, refused to be replaced by another person when given a chance to. Not really a great game.
The prsie and worship was the best of the events held on that day. This is also the praise and worship i will remember for my entire life. I sang my heart out even if it is not listenable and for the first time, i danced during when i am praising God. Amen! An unforgettable event, must Thank God for this.
Then, brothers and sisters from different campuses shared their testimonies of something to Thank God for. After i heard it, i was greatly inspired by it and it also aspires me to grow more in my spiritual life and to obey the Holy Spirit. I was especially spurred by Lolita's testimony. It makes me learn of something about God, he can do anything even if you dont expect it to happen.
Thats all for today. Goodbye. I typed this out just today because i am busy for the past 10 days.
Thank You... (Part 2)
Alright, here are the next 2 people i owe big times too. Thanks to them, my life in Secondary School is not just misery. Haha. Here it goes again.
Lu Zheng Ming
He is someone who really made an impact on my life. Since Secondry One, he and i talked about Final Fantasy, almost all the time. He is really an excellant Final Fantasy player, he is the reason that makes me so crazy about playing my Final Fantasy series to perfection. He is also very good in LAN games and fighting game. He is thus far, one of the scariest KOF player i have ever met in my entire life. He can win most of the people at Causeway Point with little effort. He is also someone who uses his brain very well, he reacts fast when people argue with him. He is also good with Magic cards. However, these things doesnt hook him for a long time. He easily grew tired of them. With all these information, you might think he is prodigy, but he isnt really one. Everyone has their own flaws, so... haha. A lot of my secrets are kept with him and he NEVER leaks them out. There is never a time in my life i heard him saying my secrets to anybody. We also use to go to triple 8 for a chat, even when we are in different classes in the later years. We will chat for a long time, sometimes even to 7-8pm. I remember i always say i wanted to go off, despite me saying this, buses after buses will arrive and depart and i am still not boarding them!! I just couldnt stop talking to him. Haha. The sad thing is i lost contact with him as he stops using his old number, hope he is still alright.
Mr Soong Chin Siang
He is one of the weirdest teacher i have ever seen. Not only he treats his students to meals without expecting anything in return, he also sacrifice his precious moment to spend time with students even if they are no longer in his class. It was also thanks to him that i got advanced in Secondary 3, even after failing loads of subjects. He is a rather soft-spoken teacher, always trying to get mad at us but never even once succeed in doing it. It was also because of him that i got so interested in A.maths. I vividly remember the time when i was in Secondary Four, always troubling him for teaching me A.Maths. Sometimes, he will even get lost with me when solving some tedious equation. Nonetheless, it is always fun when he taught me to solve an equation. We still keep in contact with him and he is someone i can never forget, a person who i owe a lot to, a debt can only be returned by becoming successful. May God bless him in whatever he does and wish that he can have a much better class to handle.
Thats all for today. Bye
Loyang bus stop
The first day of my new year was the worst of all. Not willing to bear any grudges. However, my brain is flooding with loads of negative thoughts during that day. Even when i am in the process of shooting the whole camp, i am daydreaming about Anime characters, basically because i couldnt really enjoy the whole camp fully.
Thus, i went out of the chalet at around 1.30 for a walk. I dont like crowded area, so i shun that place so that i could get some "peace". I was thinking, "I dont feel like returning to that place, probably it will be better for me to stay out the whole night." At leaast it is quiet, and i absolutely love silence.
Due to my weird personality, a lot of people think that i like loneliness. People could never guess that i am a person who detest being alone to the utmost. Sometimes, i just want to have my own space, it doesnt mean i like to be alone. At times, i may function on my own too much, when it does happen, i will flare up even if i am disturbed for a slightest moment. HAHA
Back to topic, that day, i was wandering alone around Changi and Loyang. A lot of animes come to my mind. Characters of each anime come together and form their own story in my mind. A mixture if Naruto and Pokemon is fun to think of. I stopped at Loyang industrial park because my feet could no longer carry me further. I stopped and took a rest. Soon, i became too weary to keep my heavy eyelids out of my path of sight, i napped there. However, the time was DEFINITELY not QUIET. Bicycles came one after the other, disturbing my heaven on earth. I sit up the moment i heard a bit of noisebecause it is too shameful for others to see you napping on the seats of the bus stop. I opened my eyes and one of them wished me Happy New Year, i was DELIGHTED!! However, not for a long time.
Soon, it started pouring. It was at 4 and the sky was relatively dark. The stars that dotted the sky is soon out of my perspective when the dark clouds covered them. I waited patiently for the rain to stop, thinking of the wonders of things that are beyond this world. I prayed that it will stop and 6. Not suprising though, it did stop at 6. Yeah, i made my way back to the camp, took a detour around Changi village to delay the time and i reached the camp before my anticipated time. I heard noises at the front door, thus i got apprehensive and got in from the back door. Liyan saw me and thought i was a thief!! Greatest insult i have ever received in my life!! Just kidding.
Liyan talked to me, she asked me why i dont want to mingle around. I merely answered that it is like an act of hypocrisy to mix around with people you are not that close to. Here is what she told me and i distinctly remembered it till today. People will see that you are making an effort to approach people, as long as you mean it. Then, i was mulling over this sentence for my whole trip home. Maybe i should approaach people more, having Mui Khim and Shelia is good, but soon they will their own network of friends and wont be spending so much time with me as they do now. And it is going to be a burden to me when i go out to work with difficulty in opening up. I prayed to God for a massive change and hope people can witness my change, someday, sometime in the future.
Thank You...... (Part 1)
Well, i dedicate this post to some of the very important people (Not God) in my life. Some of them may not be able to read it, but it comes straight from my heart. Right, here is No.1
Lee Mui Khim
She is someone that i have very good impression of. Since we were Secondary One. I have took notice of the dilligent girl who sat beside me during the end of year exam in Secondary One. I always see her scribbling her exam papers till the end of the duration of the whole paper. She used her time so wisely that i can do nothing but to admire her for spending her time so well. At that time, i know that she will definitely score good grades, no doubt about it. Time passed, and soon, we were in Secondary 3, she was not originally from my class, but due to the reason that she cant take pure geography, she transferred to my class. She always score the top for our class Chinese composition. She absolutely has no problem writing essential compositions at all. Not only that her storylines are good, she also has very powerful idioms to use to make her whole writing flowery. When our Chinese teacher reads her composition out, i was so amazed by her composition that at that moment, i thought that even a China person wont be able to hold a candle to her. Then, i formed a club called ATMs. She was part of the team but rarely comes for the gathering because she is not really close to us at that time yet. I struggled with my studies at that time, besides my Chinese which scored an A, i almost fail all the other subjects. At that moment, i thought i will be going to NA, so i chat with her about how life in NA is all about as she was originally from there. Then we chatted for a long time and i am comforted by her words. Then, at the end of the year, due to the assistance of my vice-principal, all my subject grades were pulled up and i did not drop to NA. Thanks to her, i worked very hard in Sec 4, though my O levels grade isnt that good, but it was definitely much much better than my Sec 3 grades. Unfortunately, she wasnt as lucky as me, she failed her science and is unable to get into any course in Poly. Nevertheless, i tried to help her in whatever i can with her science and my birthday wish for this year is for her science to get a B3, hope God will fulfill this wish of mine. She is also the only person in my Sec 4 class that i did a confession to, i just had the trust in her that i didnt have in anybody, including Benson. She was a trustworthy, pure, simple-minded, sefless person, someone who i can always put my trust in, someone i will never doubt, someone who is really a friend, indeed.
(Get this right, the confession isnt about LOVE, dun anyhow think!)
Tan Shelia
She is the first person i can talk so freely to, probably because we are from the same family background. She is also someone who helped me the most in my assignments. Sometimes, she can be so unselfish that she can forsake her time to help me in my assignments. Thanks to her, i was saved from a lot of troubles and failing my modules. We both are from poor families, thus, we have a lot of common topics to talk about. She introduced me a work, that helped me to earn quite a lot of money in a short period of time. Thank God i have such a friend like her. She also has talents in arts, she got distinction for her Studio project by rushing it through in the last few days. What an amazing accomplishment. We also chat a lot of animes, mangas and games. She is also very encouraging, she always say i have improvement in my drawing although my drawing is nothing but a pile of crap. She never says anything dispiriting. A very straightforward person, who has little sense of hypocrisy. She is just like a big sister to me, always encouraging and helping me. Very thankful to her.
I will thank the above 2 people the most in my life. Later on, in part II, I will thank Zheng Ming for being my greatest mentor peer and Mr Soong who sacrificed his precious time just to help me. There will be a total of 3 parts, stay tuned to find out whether you are someone that i really have to thank you for, farewell!
Sojourn in Motorola
Sojourn? Well, haha, it wasnt a really my temporary house. Nonetheless, i stayed there longer than i lived in my house during these 3 weekends. It was as if my another home, but the home is just a place of tormenting suffering.
The first day was the best of all. Shelia and I practically do nothing for half of our day there. It was as though the company paid us to slack. Nobody gave us the opportunity to work. I reckon people just dont trust us in getting the work done properly. When we came back from our dinner, we rushed the model assembly of 500 phones. It wasnt as tough as you are imagining write now, it was very simple. I put the batteries and Shelia do the other task. Our work is done pretty quickly, and due to that, the people in front of us are jammed with all the work that we have finished. Poor thing
The second day was the beggining of my nightmare. This day also instigates the task which i did for the rest of my 5 days in Motorola. We were transferred to somewhere else because there is nothing left to do at the venue we are allocated at. On this day, we have 2 GLs. One is just a lame tigress who will flare up when she sees her workers chatting or not cooperating. The second one is a bespectacled tigress who is very "not righteous" and will shout at her workers when they lose a label. That shout can possibly shattered the whole of Mototrola windows. It is just so loud. The scariest thing is that she exudes ferocity, not rage when she is doing that. SCARY. Well, all werent too bad for me, i had a very helpful stout aunty beside me to assist me in all the things which i do not know how to do. She also teaches me the fundamentals of all the stuffs. Very helpful indeed. Haha. I also forgot to bring my blue slip on that day, it almost causes me to be out of work for that day, but thanks to Shelia's boyfriend, i was saved from not earning the 125 dollars, lolz
The third day was not so good and not so bad. We get transferred to a place beside Shelia's friend. Initially, o do not know that she is a rather impatient worker. So, i took my own sweet time in assembling the parts together. Then, due to the slow speed of my work, she had nothing to do in just a short while. Then she began to urge me to do the things faster as she got bored from all the waiting. Well, she had to understand, we had a lot of things to do, the things she just had to do was to put the keypad in and slide the side buttons in. I hell wish i was the one doing that! Due to this, we sacrificed our dinner break and came back early in an attempt to jam her, but it fail. She was just incredibly fast. We also helped an indian girl who was jammed with more than 6 trays of phones. Well, in the beginning, i thought she was slow, later i learn that she was just slothering.
On the fourth day, time passed pretty quickly, or should i say, it was no difference from the third day. The differences are pretty minor so i dont remember much details of it.
The fifth day was much much worse than the third day. The chinese girl who sat opposite us moved to a different place. The worse thing is that her seat was taken by another indian girl who is so gibberish that she can almost talk about anything even to the person beside her, whom she is not really close to. I commit a big mistake and phones are required to be re-screen. Even so, the indian girl continued to talk and talk and talk that after we had finished our work, she still has quite a number of trays left. For heaven sake, what was she doing all this time? After we came back from our 2nd break, Shelia and i began to observe her, so that the time could pass a little faster. When she was extracting the camera rubber out, she knead and knead before taking one of them out from the container. Then when she was sliding a plastic in, her eyeballs dart around the room, as though wanting to find a dashing guy who she has hope of marrying to. Then when she was inserting a board, she touches her hair, ears , nose before managing to do so correctly. Then we have just a few trays left, and she still have tons of them left. For goodness sake, i questioned myself, is Motorola so desperate for workers that they need to hire someone like her? Nevertheless, she was a lot of entertainment, her conversation with the guy beside her name Kelly was lame but funny. Thanks to her, the time passed rather quickly, but Shelia's friend sure isnt too happy about her laziness.
Last day's work is hectic. We were so busy that we hardly even have time to go the loo. We do the model assembly so fast that we are rapily loaded with trays and more trays. We finished 1000 trays before 12. Thats is a huge sum, for heaven sake. And my work for sliding in the plastic is painful to my "delicate" hands. Then, the lame tigress took the wrong medicine and due to that, she kept screaming the whole day long. Then, we finished our work and chat, the lame tigress came and scolded us for not assisting our neighbours. What the hell, our neighbours are slacking the whole day and she blamed us for not helping them. I was thinking, scold them, they did nothing but move their gigantic mouth! Then she reprimanded us for not having team spirit. It is not our fault that we didnt completeour work, it is theirs!! It is because they are slothering around, talking all the time and only work when a GL or a QA is close to them! Crap of a team if you talk about team spirit! After we got back from our second break, i work as screwing the covers of the mobile. Because it is the first time i am doing it, Shelia's friend jammed me with a lot of mobiles. She thought it will really waver me in some way but glad i didnt, HAHA!
After the work, Shelia and i got very happy as the 6 days of painstaking work are finally over and we got our $600. Yeah.
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