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Loyang bus stop

The first day of my new year was the worst of all. Not willing to bear any grudges. However, my brain is flooding with loads of negative thoughts during that day. Even when i am in the process of shooting the whole camp, i am daydreaming about Anime characters, basically because i couldnt really enjoy the whole camp fully.

Thus, i went out of the chalet at around 1.30 for a walk. I dont like crowded area, so i shun that place so that i could get some "peace". I was thinking, "I dont feel like returning to that place, probably it will be better for me to stay out the whole night." At leaast it is quiet, and i absolutely love silence.

Due to my weird personality, a lot of people think that i like loneliness. People could never guess that i am a person who detest being alone to the utmost. Sometimes, i just want to have my own space, it doesnt mean i like to be alone. At times, i may function on my own too much, when it does happen, i will flare up even if i am disturbed for a slightest moment. HAHA

Back to topic, that day, i was wandering alone around Changi and Loyang. A lot of animes come to my mind. Characters of each anime come together and form their own story in my mind. A mixture if Naruto and Pokemon is fun to think of. I stopped at Loyang industrial park because my feet could no longer carry me further. I stopped and took a rest. Soon, i became too weary to keep my heavy eyelids out of my path of sight, i napped there. However, the time was DEFINITELY not QUIET. Bicycles came one after the other, disturbing my heaven on earth. I sit up the moment i heard a bit of noisebecause it is too shameful for others to see you napping on the seats of the bus stop. I opened my eyes and one of them wished me Happy New Year, i was DELIGHTED!! However, not for a long time.

Soon, it started pouring. It was at 4 and the sky was relatively dark. The stars that dotted the sky is soon out of my perspective when the dark clouds covered them. I waited patiently for the rain to stop, thinking of the wonders of things that are beyond this world. I prayed that it will stop and 6. Not suprising though, it did stop at 6. Yeah, i made my way back to the camp, took a detour around Changi village to delay the time and i reached the camp before my anticipated time. I heard noises at the front door, thus i got apprehensive and got in from the back door. Liyan saw me and thought i was a thief!! Greatest insult i have ever received in my life!! Just kidding.

Liyan talked to me, she asked me why i dont want to mingle around. I merely answered that it is like an act of hypocrisy to mix around with people you are not that close to. Here is what she told me and i distinctly remembered it till today. People will see that you are making an effort to approach people, as long as you mean it. Then, i was mulling over this sentence for my whole trip home. Maybe i should approaach people more, having Mui Khim and Shelia is good, but soon they will their own network of friends and wont be spending so much time with me as they do now. And it is going to be a burden to me when i go out to work with difficulty in opening up. I prayed to God for a massive change and hope people can witness my change, someday, sometime in the future.

John [12:09 AM]