Cartoon Maniac

Go or Stay or Leave or Two Time

2006-02-20T23:02:00.000+08:00

Alright, dont misunderstand the title of this post. It is just that i have created a new blog with a better name and a simpler layout. Haha.

I will still continue to update on this blog, when i have the time, obviously. I will discuss more about the Anime and Manga stuffs in this blog. Everything about the church will be moved to this address and it is www.salvagedbychrist.blogspot.com. I will of course, update more on the latter.

If you are passionate about Anime/Manga/Game and American Idol like me. This will be a blog more suitable for you to read. If you are a follower of Christ and is more interested in knowing about my personal growth and stuffs like that, the other blog will be a better one for your pleasure. So pick one, none or both. Everything is up to you to decide.

This blog has been dead for a month, but rest assured, it will be lively again in the future. Will be discussing about Anime that are suitable for all ages like Pokemon and Digimon in the next update. Until then, see you!!

Inseparable

2006-01-21T00:38:00.000+08:00

I am inseparable to the following,

Games, Manga, Anime, American Idol

Firstly,
Games
This is the greatest stronghold in my life, once i get my hands on the controller, trust me that for the following 12-15 hours, it will be a pain for me to leave the game hanging. Star Ocean is currently the game i am playing, whenever i play it, i will feel like i am in the world of theirs, venturing on an adventure of my own. This applies to Final Fantasy too. I can even bear to use some of my hard earned money and hard to get allowance to buy game guides. I will always get so obsessed with it that i wont leave it to get my meals. Even if my mother urge me to eat, i will obey but i wont have the appetite to do so. Sometimes it will even indulge vomitting. That is the reason to my gastric pain problem i had a few years back. Game is really like a super glue sticking my butt to the chair that i cant leave even if the Holy Spirit rebuked me to. The worst thing is, I cant bear to sacrifice my sleep to play games for the whole night and go to school the next day without having sufficient stamina to last. I really want to get out of this, but i crave for game so much that it is really a tough obstacle to overcome!!

Secondly,
Manga
Can anyone save me from spending too much on these. Every week, i will/must spend at least $10 on it, or else i will feel something missing in me. Manga is just like temporary cure to my misery. Whenever i am under the weather, it is something that will brighten up my day for sure. I dont read mangas as long as i play games, but it drains my allowance so much that i dont have enough to spend at times. My parents and friends have persuaded me to stop, even the Holy Spirit does, but i guess it is not working. After i completed a series of mangas, i am sure that i will be tempted do start another whole new series. No, even if i didnt complete a series, i will start a new series. That makes a lot of holes to be filled in and this will even drain my money even more.

Thirdly,
Anime
Really something terrible. Mangas drain money and guess what this drains??? Time, it drains a lot of my valuable time. I will keep downloading it and downloading it and spend a lot of time watching it. I will even go to an extend of sacrificing time to do important things in order to do this. It is everlasting, another tough stronghold to get rid of but not as tough as mangas and games since the time to download an anime is VERY LONG when for both mangas and games, you can read and play it respectively at any time.

Forth,
American Idol
Nightmare!! Really a nightmare, once i get into it, i will spend a lot of time downloading their performances and spend money to buy their cds. I will listen to it when i go to school, at home, in the computer lab, during lessons. Kelly, Clay, Jasmine and Anthony. Love them but they are really a stronghold. The good part about this stronghold is that it lasts only seven months. From January to early August. After it, i will mull over it too much and it is all again a peaceful time until the third wednesday of January again. I was anticipating a string of events to come this season as i was typing this. Pathetic!! I predict that the singer i idolise will come fifth this season as this is the fifth season. It really match!! See, Kelly CLarkson, 1st on 1st season. Clay, 2nd on 2nd season. Jasmine, 3rd on 3rd season. Anthony, 4th on 4th season. Non American Idol fanatic, you will probably find this prediction naive. LOL

Above are the strongholds in my life. Not all of them, just some of the more serious one. Hope someone call help me get out of this pit before i dropped to the rockbottom. Games (Star Ocean, Final Fantasy, Grandia and Wild Arms especially), Mangas (Chuang Yi version), Anime (Every kind, even those feminine ones), American Idol. People, believe that you will see all the strongholds displayed on my face especially when my American Idol is back again!!!

Farewell!!

Praise

2006-01-10T00:45:00.000+08:00

I really hope to sing praises to my Heavenly Father for the whole night non-stop. I am very excited today, God gave me a C for an assignment i thought i would have failed after seeing Shelia's grades. At that moment, i thought i would have failed because Shelia's poster design was far better than mine. Then, i began to surrender my assignment to God, i thought there was no use worrying, why not let God decide on the marks i will get and i stopped whining over and over again for having the fear of failing. Then, when i got my results slip back, i was greatly amazed when i saw 12/20. It really stamped my faith i have in God. Amen!

I went to the celebration with Zhang Liang in the beginning. But, due to some misunderstandings and the unclear instructions given, he backed out when we reached the Outram Park Station. When i reached there, i was rather bashful with the crowd, i sneak in without attracting too much attention and began searching for familiar faces i can relate to. Then i saw Ken, who was enjoying his plate of foods rather immensely and chatting with Karshun simultaneously. I felt comfortable and settled down. Then, Liyan approached me and asked me where is Zhang Liang, i told her the reason and she seems quite disappointed. Haiz, maybe i should have dragged him here by force. A sad thing that i didnt.

Then we have games, a rather silly game called Treasure Hunting.You have to find items required by the game master from your own group members. After which, one representative from each campus must present all the items required to the game master. NYP came in second and DI came in first. DI was given the honor to make a drink that is indecent in both taste and look. The second round of game was the most lame, representatives from each campus must act a movie out and the people are supposed to guess it correctly. After rounds of playing. NP lost the game and the representative from the campus is forced to gulp down the drink made by DI and NYP!! That is GROSTESQUE!!! However, the person from NP seems to take it as nothing, refused to be replaced by another person when given a chance to. Not really a great game.

The prsie and worship was the best of the events held on that day. This is also the praise and worship i will remember for my entire life. I sang my heart out even if it is not listenable and for the first time, i danced during when i am praising God. Amen! An unforgettable event, must Thank God for this.

Then, brothers and sisters from different campuses shared their testimonies of something to Thank God for. After i heard it, i was greatly inspired by it and it also aspires me to grow more in my spiritual life and to obey the Holy Spirit. I was especially spurred by Lolita's testimony. It makes me learn of something about God, he can do anything even if you dont expect it to happen.

Thats all for today. Goodbye. I typed this out just today because i am busy for the past 10 days.

Thank You... (Part 2)

2006-01-07T00:40:00.000+08:00

Alright, here are the next 2 people i owe big times too. Thanks to them, my life in Secondary School is not just misery. Haha. Here it goes again.

Lu Zheng Ming
He is someone who really made an impact on my life. Since Secondry One, he and i talked about Final Fantasy, almost all the time. He is really an excellant Final Fantasy player, he is the reason that makes me so crazy about playing my Final Fantasy series to perfection. He is also very good in LAN games and fighting game. He is thus far, one of the scariest KOF player i have ever met in my entire life. He can win most of the people at Causeway Point with little effort. He is also someone who uses his brain very well, he reacts fast when people argue with him. He is also good with Magic cards. However, these things doesnt hook him for a long time. He easily grew tired of them. With all these information, you might think he is prodigy, but he isnt really one. Everyone has their own flaws, so... haha. A lot of my secrets are kept with him and he NEVER leaks them out. There is never a time in my life i heard him saying my secrets to anybody. We also use to go to triple 8 for a chat, even when we are in different classes in the later years. We will chat for a long time, sometimes even to 7-8pm. I remember i always say i wanted to go off, despite me saying this, buses after buses will arrive and depart and i am still not boarding them!! I just couldnt stop talking to him. Haha. The sad thing is i lost contact with him as he stops using his old number, hope he is still alright.

Mr Soong Chin Siang
He is one of the weirdest teacher i have ever seen. Not only he treats his students to meals without expecting anything in return, he also sacrifice his precious moment to spend time with students even if they are no longer in his class. It was also thanks to him that i got advanced in Secondary 3, even after failing loads of subjects. He is a rather soft-spoken teacher, always trying to get mad at us but never even once succeed in doing it. It was also because of him that i got so interested in A.maths. I vividly remember the time when i was in Secondary Four, always troubling him for teaching me A.Maths. Sometimes, he will even get lost with me when solving some tedious equation. Nonetheless, it is always fun when he taught me to solve an equation. We still keep in contact with him and he is someone i can never forget, a person who i owe a lot to, a debt can only be returned by becoming successful. May God bless him in whatever he does and wish that he can have a much better class to handle.

Thats all for today. Bye

Loyang bus stop

2006-01-05T00:09:00.000+08:00

The first day of my new year was the worst of all. Not willing to bear any grudges. However, my brain is flooding with loads of negative thoughts during that day. Even when i am in the process of shooting the whole camp, i am daydreaming about Anime characters, basically because i couldnt really enjoy the whole camp fully.

Thus, i went out of the chalet at around 1.30 for a walk. I dont like crowded area, so i shun that place so that i could get some "peace". I was thinking, "I dont feel like returning to that place, probably it will be better for me to stay out the whole night." At leaast it is quiet, and i absolutely love silence.

Due to my weird personality, a lot of people think that i like loneliness. People could never guess that i am a person who detest being alone to the utmost. Sometimes, i just want to have my own space, it doesnt mean i like to be alone. At times, i may function on my own too much, when it does happen, i will flare up even if i am disturbed for a slightest moment. HAHA

Back to topic, that day, i was wandering alone around Changi and Loyang. A lot of animes come to my mind. Characters of each anime come together and form their own story in my mind. A mixture if Naruto and Pokemon is fun to think of. I stopped at Loyang industrial park because my feet could no longer carry me further. I stopped and took a rest. Soon, i became too weary to keep my heavy eyelids out of my path of sight, i napped there. However, the time was DEFINITELY not QUIET. Bicycles came one after the other, disturbing my heaven on earth. I sit up the moment i heard a bit of noisebecause it is too shameful for others to see you napping on the seats of the bus stop. I opened my eyes and one of them wished me Happy New Year, i was DELIGHTED!! However, not for a long time.

Soon, it started pouring. It was at 4 and the sky was relatively dark. The stars that dotted the sky is soon out of my perspective when the dark clouds covered them. I waited patiently for the rain to stop, thinking of the wonders of things that are beyond this world. I prayed that it will stop and 6. Not suprising though, it did stop at 6. Yeah, i made my way back to the camp, took a detour around Changi village to delay the time and i reached the camp before my anticipated time. I heard noises at the front door, thus i got apprehensive and got in from the back door. Liyan saw me and thought i was a thief!! Greatest insult i have ever received in my life!! Just kidding.

Liyan talked to me, she asked me why i dont want to mingle around. I merely answered that it is like an act of hypocrisy to mix around with people you are not that close to. Here is what she told me and i distinctly remembered it till today. People will see that you are making an effort to approach people, as long as you mean it. Then, i was mulling over this sentence for my whole trip home. Maybe i should approaach people more, having Mui Khim and Shelia is good, but soon they will their own network of friends and wont be spending so much time with me as they do now. And it is going to be a burden to me when i go out to work with difficulty in opening up. I prayed to God for a massive change and hope people can witness my change, someday, sometime in the future.

Thank You...... (Part 1)

2005-12-24T01:03:00.000+08:00

Well, i dedicate this post to some of the very important people (Not God) in my life. Some of them may not be able to read it, but it comes straight from my heart. Right, here is No.1

Lee Mui Khim
She is someone that i have very good impression of. Since we were Secondary One. I have took notice of the dilligent girl who sat beside me during the end of year exam in Secondary One. I always see her scribbling her exam papers till the end of the duration of the whole paper. She used her time so wisely that i can do nothing but to admire her for spending her time so well. At that time, i know that she will definitely score good grades, no doubt about it. Time passed, and soon, we were in Secondary 3, she was not originally from my class, but due to the reason that she cant take pure geography, she transferred to my class. She always score the top for our class Chinese composition. She absolutely has no problem writing essential compositions at all. Not only that her storylines are good, she also has very powerful idioms to use to make her whole writing flowery. When our Chinese teacher reads her composition out, i was so amazed by her composition that at that moment, i thought that even a China person wont be able to hold a candle to her. Then, i formed a club called ATMs. She was part of the team but rarely comes for the gathering because she is not really close to us at that time yet. I struggled with my studies at that time, besides my Chinese which scored an A, i almost fail all the other subjects. At that moment, i thought i will be going to NA, so i chat with her about how life in NA is all about as she was originally from there. Then we chatted for a long time and i am comforted by her words. Then, at the end of the year, due to the assistance of my vice-principal, all my subject grades were pulled up and i did not drop to NA. Thanks to her, i worked very hard in Sec 4, though my O levels grade isnt that good, but it was definitely much much better than my Sec 3 grades. Unfortunately, she wasnt as lucky as me, she failed her science and is unable to get into any course in Poly. Nevertheless, i tried to help her in whatever i can with her science and my birthday wish for this year is for her science to get a B3, hope God will fulfill this wish of mine. She is also the only person in my Sec 4 class that i did a confession to, i just had the trust in her that i didnt have in anybody, including Benson. She was a trustworthy, pure, simple-minded, sefless person, someone who i can always put my trust in, someone i will never doubt, someone who is really a friend, indeed.

(Get this right, the confession isnt about LOVE, dun anyhow think!)

Tan Shelia
She is the first person i can talk so freely to, probably because we are from the same family background. She is also someone who helped me the most in my assignments. Sometimes, she can be so unselfish that she can forsake her time to help me in my assignments. Thanks to her, i was saved from a lot of troubles and failing my modules. We both are from poor families, thus, we have a lot of common topics to talk about. She introduced me a work, that helped me to earn quite a lot of money in a short period of time. Thank God i have such a friend like her. She also has talents in arts, she got distinction for her Studio project by rushing it through in the last few days. What an amazing accomplishment. We also chat a lot of animes, mangas and games. She is also very encouraging, she always say i have improvement in my drawing although my drawing is nothing but a pile of crap. She never says anything dispiriting. A very straightforward person, who has little sense of hypocrisy. She is just like a big sister to me, always encouraging and helping me. Very thankful to her.

I will thank the above 2 people the most in my life. Later on, in part II, I will thank Zheng Ming for being my greatest mentor peer and Mr Soong who sacrificed his precious time just to help me. There will be a total of 3 parts, stay tuned to find out whether you are someone that i really have to thank you for, farewell!

Sojourn in Motorola

2005-12-19T01:04:00.000+08:00

Sojourn? Well, haha, it wasnt a really my temporary house. Nonetheless, i stayed there longer than i lived in my house during these 3 weekends. It was as if my another home, but the home is just a place of tormenting suffering.

The first day was the best of all. Shelia and I practically do nothing for half of our day there. It was as though the company paid us to slack. Nobody gave us the opportunity to work. I reckon people just dont trust us in getting the work done properly. When we came back from our dinner, we rushed the model assembly of 500 phones. It wasnt as tough as you are imagining write now, it was very simple. I put the batteries and Shelia do the other task. Our work is done pretty quickly, and due to that, the people in front of us are jammed with all the work that we have finished. Poor thing

The second day was the beggining of my nightmare. This day also instigates the task which i did for the rest of my 5 days in Motorola. We were transferred to somewhere else because there is nothing left to do at the venue we are allocated at. On this day, we have 2 GLs. One is just a lame tigress who will flare up when she sees her workers chatting or not cooperating. The second one is a bespectacled tigress who is very "not righteous" and will shout at her workers when they lose a label. That shout can possibly shattered the whole of Mototrola windows. It is just so loud. The scariest thing is that she exudes ferocity, not rage when she is doing that. SCARY. Well, all werent too bad for me, i had a very helpful stout aunty beside me to assist me in all the things which i do not know how to do. She also teaches me the fundamentals of all the stuffs. Very helpful indeed. Haha. I also forgot to bring my blue slip on that day, it almost causes me to be out of work for that day, but thanks to Shelia's boyfriend, i was saved from not earning the 125 dollars, lolz

The third day was not so good and not so bad. We get transferred to a place beside Shelia's friend. Initially, o do not know that she is a rather impatient worker. So, i took my own sweet time in assembling the parts together. Then, due to the slow speed of my work, she had nothing to do in just a short while. Then she began to urge me to do the things faster as she got bored from all the waiting. Well, she had to understand, we had a lot of things to do, the things she just had to do was to put the keypad in and slide the side buttons in. I hell wish i was the one doing that! Due to this, we sacrificed our dinner break and came back early in an attempt to jam her, but it fail. She was just incredibly fast. We also helped an indian girl who was jammed with more than 6 trays of phones. Well, in the beginning, i thought she was slow, later i learn that she was just slothering.

On the fourth day, time passed pretty quickly, or should i say, it was no difference from the third day. The differences are pretty minor so i dont remember much details of it.

The fifth day was much much worse than the third day. The chinese girl who sat opposite us moved to a different place. The worse thing is that her seat was taken by another indian girl who is so gibberish that she can almost talk about anything even to the person beside her, whom she is not really close to. I commit a big mistake and phones are required to be re-screen. Even so, the indian girl continued to talk and talk and talk that after we had finished our work, she still has quite a number of trays left. For heaven sake, what was she doing all this time? After we came back from our 2nd break, Shelia and i began to observe her, so that the time could pass a little faster. When she was extracting the camera rubber out, she knead and knead before taking one of them out from the container. Then when she was sliding a plastic in, her eyeballs dart around the room, as though wanting to find a dashing guy who she has hope of marrying to. Then when she was inserting a board, she touches her hair, ears , nose before managing to do so correctly. Then we have just a few trays left, and she still have tons of them left. For goodness sake, i questioned myself, is Motorola so desperate for workers that they need to hire someone like her? Nevertheless, she was a lot of entertainment, her conversation with the guy beside her name Kelly was lame but funny. Thanks to her, the time passed rather quickly, but Shelia's friend sure isnt too happy about her laziness.

Last day's work is hectic. We were so busy that we hardly even have time to go the loo. We do the model assembly so fast that we are rapily loaded with trays and more trays. We finished 1000 trays before 12. Thats is a huge sum, for heaven sake. And my work for sliding in the plastic is painful to my "delicate" hands. Then, the lame tigress took the wrong medicine and due to that, she kept screaming the whole day long. Then, we finished our work and chat, the lame tigress came and scolded us for not assisting our neighbours. What the hell, our neighbours are slacking the whole day and she blamed us for not helping them. I was thinking, scold them, they did nothing but move their gigantic mouth! Then she reprimanded us for not having team spirit. It is not our fault that we didnt completeour work, it is theirs!! It is because they are slothering around, talking all the time and only work when a GL or a QA is close to them! Crap of a team if you talk about team spirit! After we got back from our second break, i work as screwing the covers of the mobile. Because it is the first time i am doing it, Shelia's friend jammed me with a lot of mobiles. She thought it will really waver me in some way but glad i didnt, HAHA!

After the work, Shelia and i got very happy as the 6 days of painstaking work are finally over and we got our $600. Yeah.

A conversion is just a conversation away!

2005-12-12T21:46:00.000+08:00

I dislike Monday. It is always exhausting. Imagine going through 6 hours of lessons without a break. It is just so very tiring, plus, i work for 12 hours yesterday and turned in only at around 3. Put yourself in my shoes and you will know what i am saying.

Working in Motorola isnt fun. Although the pay is very attractive, the work is just too repetitive. It is nothing but boredom. The food sold there is cheap, however, it is awful. Well, as a saying goes, nothing cheap is of high quality. I absolutely agree to it.

Yesterday morning, i was traipsing to my workplace. Then, the Holy Spirit suddenly talk to me. He tells me to being someone in for the Christmas Harvest. For a moment, i thought it wasnt a bad idea. I began to imagine my classmate to convert and become a Christ follower. Unfortunately, i ejected the thought when i put my shy nature into consideration. This thought bugged me for quite, "How can i approach people who i am not very close to, if i do, they must think that i have something up my sleeves, even Benson who i am quite close to is not keen on this service. How would they possibly attend a church service with someone they are so distant to when Benson, who i am comparatively close with, reject me the moment he sees/hears the word "Church".

While thinking of this, i neglect my work and Shelia who is rather quick in putting the spare parts together hurried me. Then, i said to myself, forget it, they will never agree to it. Then i tried to test water, I asked Shelia whether she was interested in helping me as a photographer for the family carnival next friday. I asked her because she is very good i picture compositions and also having a slight interest in photography. She said Yes, still, i dont think she is responsive. Just want to ask her along for accompaniment.

Then i do pray for a sign. I prayed that if i can finish the work faster than my neighbor, i win over my classmate's heart. I finished the work, slightly slower than my neighbor. This further disheartening me, for a while, i thought it was completely implausible for me to touch their hearts.

But yet, I wasnt willing to give up. I prayed for this again. Then i began to do my stuffs hastily, not having any concern to check whether or not was it spoilt or damaged in any way. This time, i finished my stuffs slightly faster than my neighbor. Then the holy spirit tells me, if you ask them to come tactfully, you will succeed. This thought stamped me. It was indeed an encouragement.

I think of ways on how to attract my classmates to the Christmas Harvest. I put all their likes into consideration but still i wasnt having any guts to ask. I am afraid of rejection. I reckon, how i am i supposed to face them if they turned me down. How do you expect me to live with this kind of humiliation. Again, this kind of reckoning dampen my fiery spirit for the expansion of God's kingdom again.

Today, i attended the meeting for a short while at Rick House. I was very weary, thus i wasnt really listening to her words intently. Then she began to share how much Lolita has gone through in order to expand God's kingdom, well it was definitely tough! I hope i can be half as bold as her. But my courage fails to back me up. When i was going home, i was thinking, "Drop the whole idea of bring someone to Church, live peacefully as a Christian because when a preson reject you it will spread like a wildfire and make people think you are a hypocrite, only talking to people when you have some motives."

But i really hoped i can do some thing for God. A bit of mentoring and suggestion and perhaps even some consolation might help. This thought is definitely wrong but i have no bravery to deny this crappy theory. If i have the outgoing personality that enable me to talk to people without having mountains after mountains of negative contemplation. Things will be much much easier. If i talk, maybe a soul can be salvaged! Can someone helped me to open my golden mouth?

A dagger hidden behind a smile :)

2005-12-06T18:16:00.000+08:00

Hey, i have not blogged for a long time. It is a tough and strenous day for me today. I was rushing my 3D letter which has no hope of passing and doing an animation which has drawings that is equivalent to those of Primary School students. I was getting a little bit fed up with today's lesson, nevertheless, it was a fine day for me overall.

I lost my Japanese animation book. I do not know whether it is a punishment from the Lord himself or not since i pratically read about animes all the time and God wants me to put a permanent stop to it. However, my bag is a little bit lighter without that thing. Well, i have never read it, so i guess it is fine with me to lose this book, the sad thing is that this book costs me $44.

Today, i finally realised a lecturer's true colors. He seems to be a kind man, smiling to people all the time. Well, today i have a conversation with him and i guess he is not a simple person. Sarcastic yet pretending to be worried and encouraging.

Well, he failed my 1st assignment of typography today. Not that i dont care, but basically i do not want to give a heck damn to it since it pratically wastes my energy to worry over these kind of stuffs. Well, he talked to me. Saying things like i am worried for you. I was having a rather stupid yet true contemplation at that moment, "My foot, you werent be smiling if you are genuinely worried for me." Then he continued babbling about stuffs that are meant to be encouraging but doesnt seem to encourage me in any way.

I guessed ultimately, i just have to strive a little bit harder. No use mulling over such matters. It is time-consuming yet meaningless. Well, i just have to say, he is a man with a smile on his face. Unfortunately, his heart is full of nails and pricks ready to wound you at anytime. Be wary of him, or you might fall drastically in his hands.

A dagger is always hidden behind his heart-warming smile.

3 prodigies of Rikkai

2005-11-27T23:20:00.000+08:00

No more talk of the previous post. I am getting sick of it.

Let me introduce the 3 prodigies of Rikkai. Yukimura Seiichi, Sanada Genichiroh and Yanagi Renji. They are the people who lead Rikkai to the National Championship for 2 consecutive years. Amazing, isnt it. Well, there are lots more astonishing things than these.

Yukimura and Sanada can also reach the state of self-actualization and prior to this year competition, Chitose of the kansai region is the only person other than the 2 of them who can reach this state. Well, this sort of explains why Rikkai is so strong.

They are also the people who defeated Kirihara Akaya, the present junior ace for the team. This was when Akaya gave them the nickname of the 3 demons and swore to defeat them altogether in the near future.

Renji is the person who gathered data from his rival's team and provide them for his teammates. A truly smart guy, he can predict the outcome of the matches rather accurately. He also has superb tennis skills. He is also a childhood friend of Inui Sadaharu, a person he imparted his data tennis to. They had a match 4 years ago, and the match was abruptly stopped by their coach at a score of 5-4. This time, they are finally able to close out the match at a score of 7-6. It was sad that Renji lost at the end, but i reckon it was a good experience for him since he has practically lost no matches at all in his entire time in Rikkai. Well, though Akaya has the SOSA and might very possibly beat Renji. I still wouldnt deny his potential being a scary demon in courts.

Sanada is nicknamed the emperor of tennis. A solemn person who will use violence to reprimand/discipline his teammates. He is also a ruthless player, using all his might against Ryoma Echizen who is only a freshman. The defeat was traumatizing to him, since he promises his captain, Yukimura that they wont have a single loss when they deliver the Kanto championship medal to him. He also lost the title of being the strongest junior high player after losing the match. Nevertheless, Sanada is my favorite character of the whole anime and manga, i just love it when he slaps people, stare at people and scold people.

According to accounts made by POT fanatic. Yukimura skills are above those of Sanada. Though not proven in any sense yet, i believed it is true. The reason being it is very simple, Yukimura is the captain of the almighty Rikkai, and the respect that Sanada gave him can also support this inference. Looked at the way Sanada treats Renji, who is also a prodigy like Yukimura is a completely different thing at the way he treats his buchou. Well, i agree that the vice-captain should respect his captain. But with Sanada personalities, how would he let someone weaker than him be the captain of this mighty team, it just doesnt make sense. Anyway, Yukimura is someone who has personalities opposite of his vice-captain. He is a friendly guy, sort of resembles Fuji Syusuke of Seigaku. He is also not the kind of big and muscular person who everyone expects of a captain of Rikkai. He is frail, sort of feminine, just dont look like the kind who could be a demon in a tennis court.

Overall, they are my favorite characters of POT. Marui, Jackal, Niou, Yagyuu and Akaya are also my favorites. Rikkai is my favorite team of all. Believe it or not, they will trash Seishun Garden this year. Banzai(Long live) Rikkai Dai Fuzoku.

Enough is Enough!!!!!!!!

2005-11-27T02:32:00.000+08:00

Have you heard a song called No more Tears sung by Donna Summer and Barbara Streisand in 1979. This is a very interesting song, simply the best song i have ever listened to. Donna Summer is just a notch better than all other singers. Jay Chou, Jolin Tsai, Jeff Wang, the powerhouses of the Asia District couldnt even hold a candle to her. Expected, since she was claimed by the public, Barry Manillow, Clive Davis and even the Queen of Soul Music, Aretha Franklin as the Disco Queen in the 1980s.

That song was sung in a very disco-like manner. Your feet just dance along with the music. The lyrics is fabulous. I extremely like the chorus part which it goes like this, Enough is Enough is Enough, I cant go on, I cant go on no more no. This part captures my attention the most. I always like to use this part whenever i felt that i am saturated, like a sponge soaked in the water basin. During this period of time, teaching whatever to me is just as dumb as trying to store more water in a saturated sponge.

I will stop beating around the bush, it seems to be taking up much of my precious time. What i want to say is just dont come and talk to me when i am listening to MP3. I abhor people who tells me to take them off when i am at the peak of thinking something. Dont annoy me with bible talks when i am listening to it also, it just dampens my spirit. Go to the summit of a mountain and kill yourself if you find it intolerable. It is just me. Nobody can force me to like something that i have a persistent dislike on and jolly well stop trying to do it as you might end up with a heartache/headache/nothing, whatever, it is none of my concern in anyways.

i just abominate everything that happens yesterday night (excluding the service :) ). Eyeing on me like i am a suspect of stealing something when i come in late, if you like ogling at something, please goggle at something more worthwhile of you looking at than to have your eyeballs dart around something you despise. Holy crap.

Let me sum up all the whole content, that is to stop bothering me with all kinds of stuffs regarding the bible when i am in a daze. Dont even talk to me, i need some time of privacy,on a simple note, just dont talk to me!

I am highly pressurized whenever being with you all. That is why this few days, i have been shunning all of you. North, South, East, West, everything i see is the Bible whenever around you all. I see Bible so many times that birds are circling on top of my head. Please, i have like to grow but at my own pace, i am relatively new to this place and the way you guys treat me now is a totally different thing than the way you all treat me 3 months ago. I have slowly began to open up but now i feel like shutting myself back in again. If being a christian in this church has to be like this, then i will have no alternative but to leave it. Enough is Enough!!

No hard feelings. I will leave the church but never leave You-Know-Who (Not Voldemort!!!). No criticisms needed and please dont use the bible as an example if you want to remark on anything, i am shutting my ears because of these. I am struggling with it and only 2 persons know in this world. Pathetic Enough! Whatever the case, OYASUMI (GOOD NIGHT), ABAYO (SEE YOU NEXT TIME)

Japanimation, God's Blessing, Genuine Happiness

2005-11-16T23:02:00.000+08:00

I am excited!! Really, really, really excited about this coming friday.

On friday, i will get to know more about Japanese animation. Any sane people should know that Japanese animation is one of the best in the world yet! I hardly know how to draw, despite this, i still like animes! Who says you need to be very good in drawing to really know how to appreciate anime?

I like Pokemon the most. It was the first anime i started to like. I liked Kasumi's personality, how dense Satoshi could be at times. I also like the design of the monsters, how cute Cyndaquil is and how cool Typhlosion can be when it cast it's flamethrower. I also like the irritating Rocketto Dan. The repetition of their motto in every subsequent episodes never bores me out, in fact, i am comparatively amazed by every different way they used to say their motto in each episode. Typing it makes me feel like watching it all over again, starting from the 1st episode. HAHA!

Shaman King is just superb. The anime is super good and the manga is just so truly stupendous. An A graded anime for me so you will just be perched on the edge of your seat at all times watching the anime or reading the manga. You just cant wait to see what is going to happen next. The characters have by far unique personalities, how cold blooded Anna can be at times, how relaxed Yoh can be even in very perilous situation and how panicky Manta will get when something terrible happens. I like Star Group, Asakura Hao and X-Laws, Mistress Jeanne. She is just so cute for heaven's sake. I like how the story goes, very complexing yet comprehensive. It was just fabulous, fabulous and more fabulous.

Naruto, Crayon Shinchan, Prince of Tennis. They aint my favorites, nevertheless, i still like watching them.

Animes are difficult to draw, despite this, many people are still keen in it. I am very interested in it but i grossly abominate drawing. I never like to draw, since i was young. I always think that i never have the talent in drawing. After Sec 2, i told myself never to draw again, who knows, God places me in a Design School. Who knows what He has in store for me but i told myself it can never be bad. Satan tries a lot of ways to tempt me, and unsurprisingly i started to waver a little bit. I complained, complained and complained, not having any clue about what complaining can do to help me. Just before my Studio Project, i prayed very hard, i told God that i wanted to pass and God did answer my prayers through the help of People. With the help of YW and S, i managed to slip into Semester 2. Though stressful, the reward is still promising.

After my Studio Project, i began to look up the NP website for Film Studies. When i look at what the modules are offered in that course, immediately, i started to conjure thoughts about leaving NYP for good. That course comprises modules like script-writing and lighting which are the things i am really intrigued in. I began to talk about leaving the course to MK and B, my secondary school classmates. I prayed to God, i told him that i wanted happiness, i dont want to stay in a course that i can find no joy in. Then, a tangible voice echoed inside my brain. It says, "Go to NP, that is where you belongs to." I told my church brothers about it and they all prayed for a sign to ascertain that what that rings inside my head is made by my heavenly father and not the demons.

The day when i go online to check my results. I feel that there is no way i could pass my color theory module, since pratically i didnt do any assignments that needed to be redone. I logged in with much anticipation and am thoroghly jolted when i saw no F. My heart is so overwhelmed by excitement that i praise the Lord without even hesitating. It was just astounding. I am just glad that i am able to pass everything.

When i go for the semestral briefly at early November. My director told us that we can take modules from whichever specialisation even if we arent in it. That is the greatest blessing i have ever received from God yet! I know my results couldnt take me into films, yet the Lord made such flexibility to the course structure that even when i am in games and not films, i will still be able to take modules in filming. That day, i came to a state of self-actualization that i have find genuine happiness in NYP and not in NP.

Thats for it, now! :p

G.A.M.E.S

2005-10-29T23:44:00.000+08:00

I need G.A.M.E.S to survive in this world. Without it, everything will be meaningless in this life. Let me break up all the letters and elaborate on what each letter signifies.

G- God (The most important, that is why it is listed first :) )
A- Anime (Listed Second, i will be bored wihout it)
M- Manga (Listed third, not really that important as most animes are adapted from it)
E- Education (Listed fourth, this world is pratical, wihout it, you wont get a good job and... you will have no money!)
S- Supplication (Listed fifth, includes families and friends, money, clothes, foods, a comfortable home, whatever that will make you feel financially comfortable)

I will elaborate on the first part of G.A.M.E.S which is God, our Lord and Saviour.

Many people ask me, isnt it ridiculous to believe something you cannot see, hear nor touch. At first, i will agree that believing something like that is ridiculous. But as time goes by after i have become a Christian, i started to think in a very different way. Believing something requires faith and trust, you don't have to see or touch it in order for you to believe in it if you have faith and trust. Everybody has faith, but many just put it in something they can see and touch only. When it comes to God, people tend to think that it is impossible for him to exist in this world because they can neither feel nor see him.

However, believe it or not. Though i cant see God or Jesus. I can feel their presence when i am praying or reading the bible. They may not manifest in front of our eyes, nevertheless, their presence is so overwhelming, that you will be enveloped with a sense of security and warmth. It is just an indescribable feeling. Believers will know what i am talking about, some may even feel it stronger. Non-believers may find me insane, but whatever. It is not for men to judge me but for the Lord to do it.

In the book of Romans. I also learn that gossips and slanders should be avoided no matter the cost is. This includes even talking a tiny thing bad about the pastor of City Harvest, Sun Ho. Many will say it isnt a gossip but a fact, but if it is a fact, why dont I(used to be, at times also do that) and people who gossip about her say it right in front of her face. Since it is the truth, why dont we take a bold step out and "play justice", it is not like we are going to be faced with humiliation or being stoned at as we are telling the truth to the people.

I re-read the book of Matthew yesterday. In the book of Matthew 4:10-11. Jesus said to us that we should worship our heavenly father and resist from sinning which is inspired by Satan. When you do that, the probability of Satan coming after you to do the same old temptation again that will work on you is very low. Plus, the Holy Spirit that is in our body will get much more stronger and we will become more and more Christ-Like.

In Matthew 4:4. Jesus also tell us that we not only depend on physical food for survival. But also depend if not highly dependant on the Bible(the word of God) which is the spiritual foods that will be able to gratifies the hunger of our spiritual life. Without the word of God, life is just meaningless and fruitless.

So, can you live without Jesus. Answer is definitely a No. Try living without him and your life is just futile and empty even if you get whatever that will meet your wants and needs.

Anyway, how can Ryoma win against Sanada. Cant accept the fact!! (Knock head against the wall and die). At least i go to Heaven. (LOL)

American Idol = God's Son???

2005-10-27T17:30:00.000+08:00

It has been months since American Idol 4 has last being telecast on TV. I missed the cute and pretty face of Carrie Underwood, the vocally strong Vonzell Solomon and the cute dances performed by my American Idol 4, Anthony Fedorov.

Recently, i reflected on the reason why i accept Christ into my life and the reason is unimaginably humorous. It is because of American Idol that changed me into a Christian that will very soon change my life inside-out.

I started to get very fond of American Idol since the encore telecast of American Idol 3 is being aired on TV at the very end of last year. I am very touched by Fantasia's Summertime, mesmerised by Latoya's Don't Rain on My Parade, disgusted by Diana's Aint no Mountain High Enough and deeply in love with Jasmine's Inseparable.

The show intrigues me to get to know Americans. I began to get very interested in the life of Americans. As i used to have a perspective that most Westerners are usually Christians, i started to like Christian and hope to become one myself not knowing anything about having a relationship with God or stuffs like that.

Watching American Idol is also inspiring to one's life. Examples like contestants picking themselves up and doing their best on stage despite having threats and bullets being thrown at them by the public, media and Simon Cowell, a dangerous man who will give a fiery criticism to any contestants who fell under the pressure of the competition thus delivering a substandard performance teach me not to back out or shun any obstacle even if it may be extremely tough or unbearable.

After watching the show, i also began to think that Chinese singers are not as good as any of the American Idol contestants and as a result initiates in me scoffing them as well. I cleared my drawers from every of SHE albums and gave away Cyndi albums to anyone who is able to tolerate her so called "VERY CUTE" songs.

Joining Christ
I began to go back to my anime after the season 4 of American Idol ends. I downloaded and watched as many anime as i could during the period of June-August. On August 8, 6 days after one of my friend's birthday, 2 strangers approached me. At first, i thought that they just want to have a seat beside me as i am the only person on the table and the food court is quite packed on that day. Then, they introduced themselves as A and B. I was profoundly jolted at this and i contemplated, "Erm, why are these 2 guys introducing themselves, it is not liked i will be sharing these seats forever with them." I continued to eat my Japanese food.

A and B then talked to me about school stuffs and asked questions to draw me out. I am relatively reluctant to answer but still do so in the end. Then a pause..... Some time later, they talked to me about Christ. A shared to me his testimony of joining Christ, B then took out a paper and drew a bridge which is incomprehensive to me at that time. I didnt really pay any attention and continued to eat my food.

Then they invited me for a gathering on the tenth of August which is my Mum's birthday. I immediately rejected them as these words from my Mum began to sound in my brain, "Never go to a stranger's house, who knows what they might do to you." Then, they invited me for a church service, i had like to go but unfortunately i have to work. Thereafter, i left my contact number and they left.

On the following thursday, after the Design Fundamental lesson which i detest the most. A invited me for a lunch, i accept it since it is rather rude to reject it and i have no company for lunch so why not.

During lunch(I Did not eat anything then), A shared to me about Christ. This time, i listened intently since American Idol influence me in some ways which made me interested in Christ. When he told me that all sins are erased after you seek redemption from Jesus. I immediately think that it is preposterous, how can one's arson be forgiven just simply by a word of prayer. Due to this, i began to ponder whether i should become a Christian as the above principle sound rather fake to me.

On the following day, i was invited by them to a badminton game. Though i dont like sports, i did not reject them as it will be rather unfriendly to do so and i dont want to leave any impression of being unfriendly. The game is cancelled due to some forgotten reasons. Then B shared to me more about Christianity, this time, most doubts i have are mostly cleared. Then we talked on the way to the MRT station and i can feel of being welcomed.

I began to ponder whether should i become a Christian or not during the weekends and finally i got an answer. I told A that i want to convert on the following Monday. Ok, that's it.

In this process of becoming a Christian, American Idol played a huge role in it. As time goes by after i become a Christian, I realize that God has pave out a path for you so that you can become his children, nothing happens by coincidence.

And now, I am waiting for American Idol 5.

PS: Due to some unforseen troubles, identity are kept confidential. :) Have a great time.

Hiding underground

2005-10-10T21:48:00.000+08:00

Another day of unfruitful excitement!! Today, i am actually supposed to go Gail's house. Though in the end, i didnt go to her house, i still hope that she has a meaningful career ahead of her despite challenges in wait for her in the near future.

Yes, look for jobs. Still cant find one. **Sigh**. Maybe factory is the best place for me to work at. Currently, I am watching an anime known as Tokyo Underground. An above average anime which i will rate it erm... C. Alright, that isnt too good but my expectations of Animes are much more stricter than most people. It is a great, thrilling Shounen anime to watch nevertheless.

A bit of advice for people
1) For guys, dont just watch Shounen anime like Naruto
2) For girls, dont just watch Shoujo anime like Fruit Basket
3) Be an all-rounder anime watcher like me, Shounen, Shoujo, Sci-fi, Slice of Life, Supernatural etc....

Anyway, I love Megumi Hayashibara.

Today, i also learn about praying. ACTS. God wants to talk to us, you know...

2005-09-21T09:15:00.000+08:00

Alright, today is the day i have to show my journal to Miss Tina. Sadly, I have done nothing to show her yet. I am planning to rush my project through in the last 6 days. I watched Kanon, Bleach and Prince of Tennis recently, they are so cool!! Wait, every anime is cool to me. Lmao. Anyway, yesterday have an argument with someone yet again. Why is every argument related to him!! Anyone, please stop it!! It is getting more and more ludiscrous if the argument goes on.

I dont know whether i should continue in this course or not, it seems that i am not giving my best. All my works are sloppy. Miss Gail may be right, i should pull out of this course before week 8. But since i did not heed her advice, maybe i hould stick around until the end. Yeah, until the end..... <.<

Tiring day!

2005-08-30T00:20:00.000+08:00

What a tiring day today. Go to school and get scorned by a teacher who i think isnt as good as she thinks she is. This is just so maddening!!

Anyway, life still needs to go on. No matter how tough life is, there is always a rainbow after a storm!!

Word of advice for a person: Sometimes, before we blame others for something you deserved to get. Please reflect on your actions first, or else you cant blame people for being sore at you. So, get a life, man.